Sorry I have neglected this.

I doubt many people will be interested but hey XD

I hate talking about this stuff, so it probably won't make much sense blah blah blah. I have decided that enough is enough and I cannot put up with this body any more. I hate not looking ok in clothes, I hate not being able to go shopping with friends because I feel ashamed of what size I am, and I hate not being ok with what I look like. I honestly believe I will feel so much better once I have lost weight. A teacher at school used to be of a larger size, but recently she has lost so much weight and everyone comments on how fantastic she looks. She does look great, but she also smiles so much more now. I need to lose weight by September, as I will be having media lessons in an all boys school. I find it awkward around males anyway, and being so ashamed of how I look will make the whole situation worse. Obviously I will still be at the school I am now for the rest of the time, but I need to start doing something about it. Plus we are going on holiday in August, and I need to see some sort of improvement by then.

I don't know how to go about this, I want the weight loss to be fairly fast and of a large amount. I know it probably isn't healthy, but whatever, when I am at where I want to be, I will take it slowly and build it up to normal, it's fine, I just need to get there. So far I have done one thing I said I would do, if I feel hungry, go out and walk. I went out and put a prescription but I am back and still feel hungry. I need to find something that will fill me up/ get rid of cravings and that has no calories or fat. I know this doesn't exist, so basically I need a miracle.

Meh, sorry :)